It'll be Over soon

European politics is the paper tomorrow...groans...in pain...

Stupid welfare state concepts and European Union complications and curse everything that is European right now...*bangs head against wall*

I'll be so bloody glad once this darn paper is over then it'll just be the last paper on Wednesday and I'm all done.

Tomorrow evening I'll be heading down to this restuarant White Rabbit to help teach a bride a hip hop routine for her wedding reception. Kanitha is dancing too ; )

After that there's the Children's Camp on Friday and Saturday then there's the wedding itself then the Cruise then the Island holiday then the basking then the children's home then Christmas and finally the Countdown Party at Woodlands....

There goes the holidays.

Satisfaction

It's odd that in life there are times when we experience utter satisfaction while at other times, we experience complete unsatisfaction.

At one point you'd be smiling and appreciating the moments in life while at another time, you'd be wishing that time flew by faster so that the bad times would pass by.

And then, you come to a point where you feel as though everything was contradicting. Right clashes with wrong. Loud with soft. Past with future. Good and bad. Love and hate. Pain and joy. Tears and laughter.

Oddly enough, it's those moments of contradiction that make the most sense. Do you get it?

Fireflies

I first discovered this song when I was playing my brother's I Touch games; Tap Tap Revenge. Okay ignore the lame game title ; )

But the point is that when I first heard this song, I thought it was by a band...I mean OWL CITY- screams band name right? Furthermore, the song sounded like it was produced by an entire band...guitarist, drummer, lead singer...

But no. The song- "Fireflies" was produced by one guy who calls himself "OWL CITY". I had to put this song up on my blog because it reminded me of so many things like...

A kid, imagination and dreams. I don't know if you'll feel like I did when I heard this song but it felt light and simplistic. Like there's no underlying meaning...the words mean exactly as they sound. I don't think it would appeal to many people but if it does to you then brilliant : )

Carousel

The video; "Carousel" has won Cannes-Lions 2009 Film GRAND PRIX...



And the Making of the video...



Interesting isn't it. Especially the whole concept of starting out with the cop who seems to be alerting the rest of the robberers dressed as clown. But then towards the end, if you have a keen eye, you realise that the first cop is in fact one of the clowns who had jumped out of the building. You can deduce this by

1) Noticing that the man lying down in the room in just his shorts and shirt is a police officer whose outfit was stolen.

2) The man below obviously jumped as there's a dent in the car.

3) And of course, the clown's mask in his hand.

Smallest Man Alive...

Hello.

Yeah the previous post before this one, ignore it. It's meant for the AFT meeting. My yahoo mail account failed me and hence I could not send out emails to Naathan and Kanitha. As such, I was reduced to pasting the email onto my blog for the two of them to find and print out.

Well it worked.

So anyways, moving on to more interesting matters, here's a video of the world's smallest man. Does he not look like Chuckie....a little...especially when he's smoking and giving that weird look on his face.

Other than that, this guy's a small dude with a big attitude.

@ Yahoo! Video

Funny right? : )

So one of my papers ended yesterday. It was the theatre and drama module. 1 down, 3 more to go. The next paper is on Tuesday and it is the sociology module. It shouldn't be too bad.

Stayed back after my paper yesterday to study with Serena and Zahirah. The 3 of us ended up in the chinese library because the central library was filled. I swear, we were being watched. Zah and I felt uncomfortable...lol the chinese people were like staring at us probably wondering what the hell an Indian and a Malay were doing in a library filled with chinese books XD

Then Zah had to bring up; Grafenberg....ass.

That had me asking her uncomfortable questions...Imagine this. 3 girls. In a library. Whispering about Grafenberg. Don't know what that means? Go wikipedia it. That's what Zah did.

Serena left earlier and then Shanty picked Zah and I up to go for a late night supper. Prabs, Naathan and Kanitha were there too : ).

We had fun. We ate. At least everyone did except for Zah.

Then we all went home : p

And I just came back from my cousin sister's house. She was celebrating her child's 1st birthday. Haresh tagged along and it was him, my bro, myself and dad.

And now I'm just so blahhhh. You know that feeling? The one where you just wish to melt into your couch while watching some mind numbing show.

So I'm going off to do that now.

Naathan i've written notes in the agenda below in red.you can use that to run the meeting.

Also, print out the other email I sent out awhile back about the banner painting at chingay. You need that.

thankyou.

Saras

--- On Wed, 11/11/09, saraswathy Varatharajullu wrote:

From: saraswathy Varatharajullu
Subject: 7th AFT Meeting
To: "Kanitha Jagatheson" , anaz_nazeer@hotmail.com, valtoire@hotmail.com, "bettina_harbottle" , "Chiam Colin" , chithrra_27@hotmail.com, "K Prabha" , "Deepa Pillai" , draco_malfoy@hotmail.com, "Padmaanaathan Kalai Maran" , ganesh_perfect@hotmail.com, gangsterhomi@hotmail.com, "sthaze" , "Henry Law" , "ISAbelle" , "prettyboy-iz@hotmail.com" , jenjen_sweet@hotmail.com, "teo kuan chen" , "rissa1313@hotmail.com" , "idham Sparkzz" , "unclesamy93" , sathin_love@hotmail.com, ancientoriant@yahoo.com.sg, "shantyv" , "soul_master_yoji" , whiteheart_sk8ter14@hotmail.com
Date: Wednesday, 11 November, 2009, 11:09 PM

Dear AFT members, here's a notification of the next AFT meeting that will be held on the 21st of November 2009, Saturday. Most of you'll should be in attendence with most of the exams coming to an end except for the Uni students. Date: 21 Novemner 2009 (Saturday) Time: 6pm- 8pm Venue: CC conference Room Agenda: - Sameer resume post. Jason assistant. - Suady stepped down. Inform the committee of the above 2 matters. 1) Closure of SpookFest and 2nd Movie Marathon Financial Statement 2) Children's Camp Updates and Report (posters up, so far only 8 kids registered from Xishan Primary School. Ask AFT members to start calling kids they know from the previous camp. Saras is now in charge since Shanty has exams. Sathin is still assistant head for this project) 3) Project Heatzs Updates and Reportv (ask Ganesh is she wants to check if the aft members are interested in performing at the basking) 4) Open Mic Night Updates and Report (smaller scale. Push it to next year? Lack of project development. Does Isaac still want to run the project?) 5) Peter Pan sponsorship updates and casting Report 6) Countdown involvement (performing a dance. Not running the hip hop dance compeition. Isaac and Yoga to take charge. Not just a select few should dance. As many AFT members as possible. 5 minute dance performance. Must be vibrant and lively. Both to come up with the concept and the song and approach Saras before beginning rehearsals. Quaility check.) 7) Initiation of the 3rd Movie Marathon (19 December 2009) (ask someone to take charge. Come up with the concept. Posters up by end of next week) 8) AFT Retreat Information (shanty to brief. this or next year) 9) Name card Updates (Sameer, Jason and Shanty) 10) New recruitment (Brainstorm how to recruit new members) 11) Chingay parade (Naathan you can take out the info from your email. I forwarded a copy of the banner design thing for Chingay. Ask if anyone is interested in joining. Only Colin responded. Need to submit 3 names for this by Monday.) 4 and 5 December: 7th childen's camp 12 December: Auditions 13 December: Basking at Orchad for Project hearts 19 and 20 December: Auditions 19 Decemebr: 3rd movie marathon 21 december: Project hearts 31st of december:Coundown. There's fireworks....venue: hardcourt beside sembawang mrt station Alright folks, as you can see, we have quite a number of stuff coming up for the month of December!!! IT'S GONNA BE AN EXCITING MONTH FOR AFT AND I URGE THOSE NOT INVOLVED IN ANY OF THE ACTIVITIES, TO START CONSIDERING WHICH YOU MIGHT BE INTERESTED IN !!!!!!!!!!!!! And to those who think to take more than 2, STOP RIGHT THERE. Think carefully before you commit. I rather you put your effort into 1 or 2 events, give more and enjoy more than to over exert yourself in too many areas. SO BUCKLE UP AND PREPARE FOR FUN FUN FUN IN DECEMBER : ) Attend the meeting to find out exactly what's in store for each of you'll. You wouldn't want to miss it for anything in the world. Because, remember that when you give alot to AFT, AFT's naturally gonna give alot you back too Alright, so sms Kanitha if you are able to or NOT able to attend. Remember to respond either way. Saras AFT Chairman

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One more...

My first paper is tomorrow at 1pm. It's theatre studies. I think I've studied all I need to...I think ; )

Either way I'm done memorising and am going to relax a bit.

Here's another brilliant movie trailer. Watch it.

Avatar

When you watch this trailer, imagine the pride the director and the production crew took in building this from scratch. This is a movie that has been 15 years in the making and has hit a budget of $50 million.

Is it worth watching?

Hell yeah.

Childish Thoughts

This song just reminds you of things...

I want

I want to hold the string of a blue balloon, lick the delicious brown chocolate ice cream of a cone, gaze up at the reddening sky before night comes, smile for no reason at all while lying down on the grassy green planes of a hill.

Why?

Because I can.

Because I want to feel.

Because I want to be.

Simply because it'll remind me I'm a kid at heart.

Exams

Exams are just around the corner.

Tuesday's the first of it all. In fact, it is the worst of it all. It's the practical of my theatre studies module, TS1101E, and we've to put a 20 minute production that has 3 songs in it.

I'm directing and everyone in the team has to double up as actors. So tiring. I haven't had time to do anything else but complete this production. There's still the director's portfolio to type out and it has to be completed by today along with the production booklet.

Once that's done, there's still the theory paper of TS1101E on Saturday. Then following that, will come the 3 more papers that I have.

X X

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On other matters, the next AFT meeting will be run by one of the Vice Chairmans. And since the O and A level students are somewhat done with their papers, they should all be in attendance. So that's good news.

Haresh is sitting beside me right now. Watching Spongebob Squarepants. He's in this I've-showered-and-am-in-a-zombie-like-mode-not-sure-of-what-I-want-to-eat-maybe-pancake-or-waffles-or-no-suddenly-I-want-water. Family was over yesterday for Deepavali. It's 1 month later so it's apparent my family's enthusiastic.

Haresh and Suria decided to stay over. So the small kid's here beside me. But I mentioned that already. Spongebob just failed his driving test. Just in case you were wondering.

God....

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All the Right Moves

This is a gorgeous song produced by One Republic titled "All the right moves". The first time I heard it last week, it sounded extremely familiar. I'm not sure but I think an old band may have created a song that sounded like this. Anways, listen to it because it can get very very very addictive. Plus the video was beautifully crafted.



Let's paint the picture
Of the perfect place
They've got it better then when anyone's told ya
They'll be the King of Hearts, and your the Queen of Spades
Then we'll fight for you like we were your soldiers

I know we've got it good
But they've got it made
And the grass is getting greener each day
I know things are looking up,
but soon they'll take us down
Before anybody's knowing our name

They've got...

All the right friends in all the right places
So yeah, we're going down
They've got
All the right moves in all the right faces
So yeah, we're going down

They say
Everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
They say
Everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down

Do you think I'm special?
Do you think I'm nice?
Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces?
Between the noise you hear, and the sounds you like
Are we just sinking the ocean of faces?
It can't be possible... the rain can fall
Only when it's over our heads.
The sun is shining everyday, but it's far away.
Over the world that's dead.

They've got, they've got...

All the right friends in all the right places
So yeah, we're going down
They've got
All the right moves in all the right faces
So yeah, we're going down
(Repeat Once)

They say
Everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
They say
Everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down

It don't matter what you see
I know I could never be
Someone that'll look like you.
It don't matter what you say
I know I could never fake
Someone that could sound like you.

All the right friends in all the right places
So yeah, we're going down
They've got
All the right moves in all the right faces
So yeah, we're going down
(Repeat once)

They say
Everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
They say
Everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
Yeah, we're going down
(repeat twice)

All the right moves... heeey
Yeah we're going down
They say
All the right moves... heeey
Yeah we're going down

It's Not Complicated

Exams are coming up.

Theatre Studies practical is next Tuesday.

First paper is next Saturday.

House Chores ( lol necessary evil).

The rest is all by choice.

It's rather simple really. I just do what I want. Focus on what I love. And don't care about anything else. If trouble comes knocking at my door, it better have a good reason or I'd kick it to China. And yeah...I probably shouldn't bother anymore. I'll just deal with my own life and those I care for; my family and close friends.

Shruthi I'm sorry your best friend's mother passed away. Cancer isn't the
bearer of good news but I'm glad she at least had the chance to speak to her mum
before her death.

Prabs, thanks for lunch dear. And good luck with the birthday dinner. And
watch out for yourself on the bike. No more accidents okay?

Serena, take care of yourself. Stay well and healthy. We'll pull through
this. The practical will be over soon and so will all our papers.

Naathan, take care in Australia and hope you're having fun. We'll see you
real soon.

Yuvin, army is part of your life now dear. And it will be over soon for you
to move on with the rest of your life.

Shamala, you've disappeared girl but whatever it is you know you can call
me.

Zahirah, I'll be calling you in awhile to discuss the stalker matter. Why
did you have to all beautiful and glamarous? ; )

Shanty, Praven, Prateepan; Stay safe kids. Praven finish your papers fast
monkey. Prateepan, I'm so very very proud of you for making it into the ASEAN
kids cyber camp. Shanty, you're final year is coming to an end and I know
you'll do well.

To everyone in AFT: Your problems are mine simply because I'm
your chairman. Sometimes I choose to get involved and other times I'm
sucked into them. All I have to say is that I wouldn't push you'll so
much if there wasn't potential. AFT is your home as long as you want it to
be. So take care of AFT as it will take care of you.

I have learnt so much in such a short time and as such, there's something very important that I'll never do again. Of that you can be sure.

The 7 Sins. Which is the most dangerous?

According to the poll (of which not many actually did do but hey any answer is an answer...) So according to the poll, it's noted that lust and greed are considered the most dangerous.

I suppose Lust is dangerous in that it causes most to think with anything but their mind. It's distraction at its best and can serve to bring down even the greatest of nation. Case point: Troy.

What about greed? Greed for money, greed for food, greed for wenches. Not having enough of something and always wanting more. It can result in many deaths if one wants more power. Case point: Hitler (yeah....I couldn't think of a better example. Hitler keeps popping into my head especially after typing out my European essay)

But do you know what I think is the most dangerous?

PRIDE

Pride is a dangerous sin for it is to do with one's unwillingness to accept that his/her actions were wrong. And not being able to admit one was wrong is truly dangerous. It is not uncommon for people to have pride. In fact it is necessary to have pride. But it is possible to have too much pride. Pride refuses to allow one to see beyond they're own reasoning and further ensures that one is adamnet about one's stance. It can cause others to give up on a prideful person, leaving him/her on their own.

You may have your own views about which sin is more dangerous. And it is to do with the difference of personality. Some may feel that wrath is more dangerous and it may be true but in different situations.

Whatever the matter may be, it is undeniable that everyone of us possesses at least 1 of the 7 sins. I for one know that I am a prideful person. Sometimes too prideful for my own good ; )

But with time, each of us either learns how to curb that sin in us or we embrace it whole heartedly. Whatever the action we take, the sin will remain with us either in a large way or a small part.

Do you Know that Feeling?

I just read my post; the one before this. And did you know something? They say that when you hate something about someone, it's probably because you either behave the same way or atleast used to do so.

I used to be like that. Immatured, confused and I suppose ignorant to those around me. But I learnt. And that is all I intended with that post. I hope you'll learn. If not now, evantually. Please fight for what you want.

DO you know that feeling?

That feeling of desperation?

That intense desire to succeed?

That suddent wave of want that leaves you aching to fufill your dreams?

Do you know that feeling?

You should.

Everyone has had it atleast once.

If you're human, definitely more than once.

So what if that need or intense desire dies down after awhile? So what if suddenly you feel empty? So what if you feel that you're not having that drive?

I'll tell you what.

Give it time. That aching need or drive to succeed in life will not always be there. It comes in spurts just as how happiness and sadness, anger and sorrow, laughter and tears takes turn to appear in your life.

Just know that when that need suddenly disappears, it's not going to stay away. It'll come back. Give it time.

Oh and bloody hell...I just realised how solemn it has become!!!!!! Egads! We must not allow this darling non loyal readers who probably have stopped reading this blog.

NEXT POST: THE 7 SINS...WHICH IS THE MOST DANGEROUS?

Suck it Up

We all have to grow up. We all have to learn right from wrong. We all have to suck it up.

Never have I been more agitated before. I've always understood and I'll never stop understanding. Maybe that's what makes everything awful. Understanding. By understanding someone or what they're going through, you're expected to remain calm and not get angry at one's misgivings. I'm starting to feel weary of this.

Why?

Because everyone has issues.
Because everyone has problems.
Because no one has a perfect life and neither do they have a perfect journey.

So why are some people more openly depressed about their life while others are quieter about their problems. The only answer is the difference in personality.

Do I have a problem with this?

Are you kidding? Of course not. I don't judge people based on their personality. They are entitled to thier own opinions.

But what I don't like is when these different groups of people start judging one another based on the assumption that they're better either in terms of "My life's worse than yours and I don't get why you get everything!" or "You're life isn't bad at all. So why do you overact?"

Honestly, both sides should just shut up, grow up and FREAKING SUCK IT UP!!!

God....How I wish I can grab these people by their throats and tell them that sometimes to get something from life, you have to give something first.

No one gives you anything on a silver platter and if you run away at the first sign of a fall, frankly speaking...you're gonna be running for the rest of your life...and if that's the case, good luck because you're not going to get far.

And what about those people who feel as though they have the right to make the people around them feel miserable when they feel down and sad? I can't judge you because I'm not like you and I have to accept that everyone's different. But I have only one thing to ask of you. Can you please understand that it is UNFAIR when you make those around you miserable only to come back all smiling after a few days expecting those people to accept you without question.

DO YOU KNOW WHY WE DO THAT!?!?!? DO YOU KNOW WHY EVERY SINGLE GOD DAMN TIME ONE OF YOU FALLS AND GRUMBLES AND COMPLAINS AND DISAPPEARS ONLY TO RETURN TO A GROUP OF FRIENDS WHO ACCEPT YOU AGAIN?!?!?!

I'll tell you why. Because we're idiots. We care for you'll dispite all the hurt we have to keep going through. We're such idiots. We hopelessly belive that you'll would change after each time. We're such dumb idiots. We don't want to see you'll fall again because we feel as though we are falling too.

Sometime ago, we felt as though we might have caused that hurt you'll seemed to hold but you know what? That's utter bullshite. When you stumble and fall, it's no one else's fault but yours. If you crash and tumble, it's your mistake. If you didn't spend your time well, how is it the fault of others?

God damn it all but if you'll fall again, I'd probably want to help guide you'll back but I'm going to step back this time. We all will step back. You know why?

Because you'll have to suck it up.